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Rhik Samadder is a writer, actor and broadcaster. He has a regular column with The Guardian and created their cult ‘Inspect a Gadget’ feature. He has written for The Observer, Men’s Health and Prospect magazine, as well as being a guest, presenter and host on various radio shows. Rhik studied acting at Drama Centre London and appeared on HBO, BBC, ITV, Channel 4 (credits including Coronation Street, Emmerdale and Doctors) as well as a lead role with the Royal Shakespeare Company

 

Christmas morning, 2010. I’m in bed with my mother, in a Bangkok sex hotel. It is my thirtieth birthday. How have things got so out of hand?

On an unlikely backpacking trip, Rhik and his mother find themselves speaking openly for the first time in years. Afterwards, the depression that has weighed down on Rhik for much of his life begins to loosen its grip for a moment – so he seizes the opportunity: to own it, to understand it, and to find out where it came from.

And so begins a journey of investigation, healing and recovery. Along the way Rhik learns some shocking truths about his family, and realizes that, in turn, he will need to confront the secrets he has long buried. But through this, he triumphs over his fears and brings his depression into the light.

A vital, moving and darkly funny memoir by a powerful new voice, I Never Said I Loved You is the story of how Rhik learned to let go, and then keep going. With unique

Rhik Samadder is a writer, actor and broadcaster. He has a regular column with The Guardian and created their cult ‘Inspect a Gadget’ feature. He has written for The Observer, Men’s Health and Prospect magazine, as well as being a guest, presenter and host on various radio shows. Rhik studied acting at Drama Centre London and appeared on HBO, BBC, ITV, Channel 4 (credits including Coronation Street, Emmerdale and Doctors) as well as a lead role with the Royal Shakespeare Company.